another CrosS ROAD

I just got back from Singapore on Sunday morning.. It was a great time..but, once we got home, we got really bad news that my dad was sick ..It wasnt just flu or somekinda sick like that, but he got a minor stroke ..I was pretty shock, although i knew that dad had always been sick due to high blood sugar lever /diabetes but, he never went to the hospital.

So, yeah, this time, we had to bring him to the hospital in Jogjakarta. My brother went over to GOmbong to see him and brought him str8 away to jogja. Once we landed on Sunday, J ephie took the next flight in the morning to Jogja.

Today, i just arrived in Jogja and my other sister coming within the next hour. Well, i really hope things are going well with my dad.. I mean, this is the first time that m y family has been put through to this kinda situation.

I saw my dad today on the hospital. I was sad, i mean, he is a strong guy rite..And he s been always a powerful guy for everyone!!! But Gosh, i was really really sad to see that dad hardly could do anything... He was just there on the bed.. He smiled on me and tried to make a joke a little..But, i didnt wanna make him laugh so much which could make him cough.. GOd, i really pray that He would give my dad strength and health.. I want to see allrite again, be powerful and laughing with us again. I know, i have had a lot of disagreement with my dad about running the business.. But i love him.. and we know that we are connected together..

But this situation really put me on dilema.. Coz I am planning to go to Dubai at the end of next month.. I had to sign a contract and collecting all my documents.. I dont know wat should i do.. Is that okay for me to leave him alone in here to achieve wat i wanna do.. YOu know, i have been waiting for the moment to go abroad to work.. But, i dont think the time is right, right now..? Gosh.. !!! I have ever said before that i have done all i could to go overseas, but if God doesnt want me to go, then i couldn do anything..