stranger…

December 3rd, 2006 by arnan

This is so strange…I dunno if i am the one that become a stranger to myself..or, this entire world is strange..

Tonight, i feel i am a time waster..i am no use for anyone or anything..I feel like, i lost track of wat happening surround me..With my time that i have, the money that i earn, i should be able to do somethingelse more useful, more beneficia for people around me..BUT>…wat can i do, where can i do that, how.?? I dunno..

Here i am, in the middle of the night..trying to sleep.., staying in a room which i didnt even know how the hell, i couldnt end up in this room..In the middle of big city in UK that i dont recognice at all..

It s pathetic, I could easily answer all that questions if somoene asked me..I mean if it wasnt about me, I couldnt easily answer with a very wise advices …yeah i am pretty good at it..Very good in giving advices and to lie without anyone could find out that i was a complete trash…

shit, now i start to think..wat a hell i am writting blog..writting this all thought that come accross to my mind..which definitey has no use to anyone..and i haven been wasting my time, have i??

I dunno, i guess, i dont recognice myself anymore atm..HOpefully, sometimes in future, i could pick up all those broken glasses of my life and put it all together..for a better use..I dont wanna blame anyone, or the place which cause all of this things coz i know, i got a control of them…not them controlling me..