This might be re post for many many years ago.. it s a story about my life ...story about way of life and what my life is different to others... Story that i don't know if i should be proud of it or to be shame of it...
I don't know if any of you ever feel like, "you don't wanna do that stuff, but you just don't have a strength NOt to do it." And the worst it, its happen over and over again...Every time you make commitment, every new years you make commitment or resolution about it..and every time you fall..
May be that s what people call a "sin".. It feels so good, so then you are so tempted to do it..but, once you fall, you ll feel so shit about yourself coz you fall deep down in the bottom...
anyway....hopefully one day....i ll come to this page and celebrate myself to win over this..
lets pray.
As optimistic as I am (I can find a bright side to just about everything), I also know that life can be a dark and lonely place.
I’ve talked to teenagers who have a parent whose anger makes just going home after school a dreaded trip.
I’ve known people who can’t escape the curtain of depression.
I’ve spent considerable time with others who, like my wife and me, are enduring life with the sudden death of a child.
I’ve seen what relentless poverty can do to people all over the world.
Despite knowing that these scenarios exist, I don’t despair. I know that hope is available in Jesus, that guidance comes through the Spirit, and that knowledge and power are found in God’s Word.
It s mean to be a business trip to Bandung, But i ended up staying for 3 days in Gombong at Mum's Place.
First of all, the design from Asses is not ready coz we make lot of changes in last few days. So, the dead line for that design changed till around 8 of January. - which that s mean i got spare times to kill either in Bandung or Gombong.
In the same time, Je Yudith apparently going back to Gombong too, so it s a good catching up then between us. Pretty funny, coz the whole family is kinda split into 2 without purpose .. J'ephie and the family and oh rony family went to Banka Belitung on the 4th till the 8th. Me and J yudith back in village. We wasnt planning to do that. I would love to go to Babel.. But, i got no spare money for fun plus, i need to go to Bandung on the 5th from the originial plan.
Anyway, one we arrive in Gombong..We found out that "mini market manager" resign from his job. And as you know, Rest Gombong is like a chaos. No set of work schedule, no system, no management NUFFING...So, Mus was a bit worried with the mini market losing the head..So, all the sudden it comes to the conclusion for me and J yudith to take over of Mini Market... Me personally, based on my experience in soka, i would rather to take over the whole a lot of Mini market rather than, just fixing the system. Coz i know, i would be able to fix the system when i am not fully incharge on daily operation in there. But, J yudith thinks different ways...But anyway, i ll let it go what she wants to do....I mean, i am here to supports everything which comes to the conclusion...
Anyway, so, the "work" in Gombong wasnt something that i have planned it before.. But, it seems kinda fun for me to do this.. You know, my aim this year is to take as much as opportunity to get the business going...So, this is another opportunity for me to prove to myself what i am capable of and enjoy life with work load...Thanks God, i am just gonna take this ride of life on 2009..Bring it ON..!!!
wuihh, akhirnya berlalu juga tahun 2008..Tahun yang panjang buat gua..banyak banget kejadian kejadian yang selalu dapat di ingat di tahun 2008.. it s been like a roller coaster really..!!! ups and downs...yahhh seru deh.. what have i been doin in 2008? flash back dulu deh di tahun 2008:
January 2008
recovery from ill - tipes di akhir tahun yang harus buat gua masuk rumah sakit for a few days..and skip the work during x mas and new years holidays..so, bener2 gak bisa ngerayain x mas ataupun new year..not even be able to work..
Di bulan ini juga, gua merasa, i need to make a move..deciding between staying in Indonesia or going back to Aussie... And at the end i decide to apply PR to oZ.
February 2008
Preparing for my application to OZ for Permanent Resident (PR). Summited all in March.
March 2008
work has been really busy.. MY restaurant reached a massive income record in a day RP 40 jt rupiah..Was so happy..
I decide to go for interview to work in new opening hotel In Atlantis Dubai. I got a job straight away in that interview. I was so excited at that time. Atlantis dubai is amazing and to be able to be part of it is a priceless experience for me i think.
MOst of all, i Met 2 other people during the interview John and Kei Which right now, they ve been my Hang out friends since that. They are really kewl and entertaining for me. At least they have made my life different in Bali since i met them. I started to go out and know the night life in Bali. You know, you can life in this planet without friends. and that obviously proven to me. So, thanks for all you kei and john.
April 2008
Holidays to Hongkong for the first time with My sister and the family. Amazing things to see over there.. I got to catch up with Tiffany in Hongkong. I always enjoy travelling. Glad to see other people life style in other part of the world.
In the same time, this month, i have a minor operations on under my ear. just to take off some lumps under ears. Pretty scary but it was a sudden decision..I just did it...It makes me realize that anything can happen in your life without warning first. Praise to God for looking after me. But yeah, visiting hospital twice in 6 months wasn't very pleasing experience for me.
Mei 2008
My birthday, didnt do anything this time..just a small dinner with my sister family at JImbaran. No celebration nuffing.. Ups, i remember, i met friend from Cs, he was nicely remember my birthday and offering to celebrate it together in kuta..so, i went for drinks with him and visiting the "bar" for the first time ever, and obviously i didnt stop coming over to that place since.
June 2008
Life has been busy with work loads in SOka.. I kept waiting for my PR to come..obviously i couldnt concentrate on what i am doing in Indo...So, life had been very boring and unexcited for me.
July 2008
I got ready to go to Dubai. I got the contract and all ready to go. But, after i told my dad about my leaving, a week after that, he went serious ill . He got stroke and had to go to hospital for a week. IT s not a experience i wanna have this year. Everyone in the family was crying and lost kinda of thing. Specially with the visitor from my dad other family..Not nice, and mum got blame for all of it from my sisters..!! It s been crazy, i dont like it that situation at all...
Obviously i had to make a big decision not to go to DUBAI...Gosh, you know, at that time i was feeling like i had to make a major life time decision. YOu know, leaving indonesia was all i ever wanted for the last year. And it s now the door was open for me to leave but, with all this family situation, i could t do it. undiscripeable
feeling you know.
Agust 2008.
Went to singapore with dad and mums, my sister and brother for my dad health check ups. IT s all went well. I love Singapore since that.
September 2008
the quitest month ever in Soka coz it was a fasting season before Ramadan.
To be honest i am still hoping for my PR to come coz it has been a while and i could be anytime soon to be granted. But, it never comes.
Thanks GOd, for all happen in mid year..Since my dad sick and wasnt able to work like before, i started to have my own decision in Soka. Kind off full authority to work overthere. So, i started to renovate the restaurant . And you know, the feeling i have was amazing.. I new how to built a restaurant now, and it wasnt easy..so, since then, i am feeling attach with that restaurant now. I started to like renovating and making changes in Soka. FOr a while i forgot about all going away plan to overseas.
October 2008
work work work i guess...it s ramadan and busy time to earn as much money as i can... I lost all my money for renovating restaurant now..so, time to collect them all..:) .. THe restaurant looking very good.. But, no other family actually got time or interested to look at it. Dad still feeling and thinking the same way to me. He thinks i am a loser and got no use at all for this family. :( ..But oh well, i didnt tell anything about all the improvement and renovation to him..
NOvember 2008
Went to singapore again my dad , mums and sister to do dad health check up. He went straight to bali to check out the restaurant after that. i think he was quite impress with all he s seen. And for the first time at all, he said, the renovation looks good..
At this time, i got a few offers to start making other business. I met with MAtthew from MECA (agent for my PR application). He interested to work together to open MECA in bandung. SO, we met up and agree to follow this idea up. From now on, i enjoying my time in Indonesia. IT really coz i could start making things happen. I was so happy for all my progress. This time of the year, i was not thinking of going overseas anymore.. ALthough my PR was still a good benefit for me. But i really hope that MECA is becoming my other life history in the future.
Dec 2008.
We start signing contract for MECA. I have become a director for this company. I am so glad i did it. Hope all went well with this.
And for the first time ever since the last 5 or 6 years, i could celebrate new years and x mas. I went for dinner with Pricilla on x mas eve and Party time with puput, john and taha in new open lounge in kuta for new years...fireworks, dance and drinks is always good for new years. ..:) thanks GUYs
Thanks God for that had happen to me for this year. Amazing things. The experience has changed my mind and direction of my view points in some other ways... Thanks for my friends and the family for supporting me.
ANd i now, i am so exciting for the year of 2009..bring it on..!!! a Big thing will happen this year i hope. I have made a 2009 program for Soka. and Meca hopefully will start and running on March this year. !!! That s 2 biggest job for me this year to make sure it all two running very well.
2009 is a time to work and found you life ARNAN...go to direction you wanna be and show the world what you capable of in this life...
Merry x mAs and Happy new year to you all.
I am so excited today. 2nd of December 2008. It s a time of life where I am signing an agreement to create a PT…yes, it s a company under my name..!!! unbelievable aye..!! Thank s God for that. I know it still in the process of creating one. Today, me and Matthew meet up with “notaris” to talk about creating our company. Its under the name of MECA Indo… I really got no idea how far I am gonna with it. But I know for sure, that I need to work really hard to make my life happened, to make this business running well, to make changes in people life on what I am doing in this company.
Yes, on the age of 24 years old and 203 days, I officially make a start in creating a company.!!! I know for sure, that networking is the only key in here. I wouldn’t even thinking of this PT if I don’t talk to Matthew, and if don’t care about my future and doing business. Still clear in my mind when I started to move my guts to actually say “ hi” to Matthew on Skype. Starting to chat about the possibility of us working together. So far, I think I am pretty lucky on what I found on Matthew. He is very genuine guy, honest and easygoing. I think I ll be working pretty good together with him.
You know, half of thinking like gosh, I am gonna loosing my free time now..!! hehehe..but I know, I ll be working my ass off.. no excuses not to work..to be lazy and wasting my life not being productive. This is sort of job I really like. You know, to be able to talk with students, and dealing with people who actually want to change their life to move to another country or to find a better jobs. And for me myself, It s a job that will allow me to travel around the world, which always something that I am dreaming on.
So, I really thanks God, for all of this…..I am very looking forward of what gonna happened next..and I really hope and believe it will only take me to a better one. !!!
I feel lively right now. IT has been 1,5 years since i got back to Indonesia, and right now, i feel like i am back from dead !!! Selama gua di Indonesia, i got no proper job. I feel like my live is useless. Kerja bingung, pengen bikin rencana sesuatu mengenai business, selalu aja di tentang ma orang orang sekitar... Sering gua ngerasa, apa gua gak fit in ma orang orang di sekitar gua ini...Yang salah tuh pola pikir gua ato mereka seh..Semua gak jelas..Bias...Emang bener klo orang bilang, benar ato salah itu tipis perbedaannya, sering kali kita di buat bingung dengan pemikiran kita dan orang lain mengenai apa itu kebenaran atau kesalahan. Anyway that s not the point i am writing this blog at this time..
Hari ini gua happy, sekarang gua ada di Bandung. I came here 2 days ago. The purpose of me coming over here is to do business. Well, gua ketemuan ma Matthew hari ini untuk melihat lokasi tempat disini , di geger kalong. And i was pretty worried if he would say that i didnt like the place..but it turned that he liked the place. Waktu gua bilang itu ke oh rony dan agatha. both of them said " wah, berarti dia seleranya rendah tuh". Emang bener, sometimes we dont realise how much we got till we lose them. Mereka gak tau, klo rumah tempat depan yang mereka gak gunakan selama bertaun taun tuh bagi orang lain memilik potensi besar yang bisa di pakai untuk menghasilkan uang dan berproduksi.
Anyway, after all da conversation with Matthew..gua semakin semangat dengan business ini. I know, not many people in da family understood wat i am doin and put a lot of interest toward this business. But, i am so excited and i could see myself running this business. And most important for the first in my live, TODAY, i feel i woke up from dead.. I got semangat lagi untuk berkarya dan bekerja.. It s not all money, but to make my dream come true and showing up to people and myself that i could do something great. !!!! Lebih lagi, setelah ngobrol dengan Matthew this arvo, I sent messege to Pak Kus, untuk membahas mengenai kuta galeria. And guess wat, I am meeting up with him tomorrow morning at his place. !!! so excited..I dont know what will turn out from the conversation tomorrow, but at least i am trying and i got chance to try it tomorrow. !!! wonderful ay. Right now, i got heaps of plan a head my for next year !!! I am excited and i hope everything goes allrite. !! thx God. !!!
I just got back from Singapore.. Taking my dad for a check up.. I was with my sister " j Ephie and my Mum this time.. I enjoyed the time overthere a lot..Singapore has been one of my favorite country... But sometimes that i realize right now to compare Indonesia and Singapore...
It s "Ironis" Indonesian people said...Coz you know, when you are in singapore...Yes we can see so many beautiful buildings and decoration in mall or hotels...It is actually the same with in Indonesia. We got millions of fantastic looking buildings and luxury restaurants or hotels in Indonesia. But this is the different.. In singapore, there is not much different between the inside and the outside of the building.. You know what i mean.. In indonesia, we can enter a room or restaurants or hotels and we completely in different world inside it. BUt once we get out to the street or even just one step out side of the door, we can feel the heat, we can see dust, we can even see beggars and all the messiness of live out there. "Ironis" when some people can enjoy a heaven and millions of others stay out there in hell. A hell of poverty. Those who can feel the complete heat from the sun, those who are not able to pay for even cheap food, those who feel cold at night coz they dont have place to stay and live. While others are enjoying luxury live, luxury food and feeling warm of the blanket in the 5 starts hotel rooms. IT s a pity how live is so imbalance here in Indonesia... something to think about...to give thank to GOd for all we got.. And really we need to make a change right now in Indonesia. !!!!
